Saturday, May 01, 2004

 
Evanescence








There are a ton of things weighing on my sholders right now, and since I have no means to vent them in (im out of canvas and paper to paint on, and its kind of late to head to the gym) I have decided to write some poetry, its been a while, and I have massive problems with anger managing, so cut me a break. Here I go




I watch it all slip; through my fingertips I watch it fade away.
Like water, it cannot be retrieved, like grains of sand, too fine to pluck from the earth to which it has fallen.
Lost in a red sea of anger, shrills that will never reach ears of those who it will hurt most
Like a siren, yet to draw you from that certain death.
Our eyes once met, but no longer.
Into the chasm I have avoided all my life, you have leapt into, joyfully falling from your mantra.
What once was the solid foundation of your character has become your spring board into helplessness.
It is a long fall, and when you hit the bottom, its a long way up.
The first, you are not. The last, you are neither.
So I watch you plummet into the abys, as I have watched those dearest to me, and I can do nothing.
I cannot save you.
All I can do is stand here on my rock and weep, shaking clenched fists.
Onto scarred knees I fall, picking at grains of sand, digging for droplets of water
Asking, why?
posted by Jenni 12:20 AM